I went on a quest to understand. Plus the retirees still cheerleading β in pictures. As children, my friends and I would play at being shopkeepers and customers, thrilled to inhabit an adult role. As a teenager, I lived alone abroad.
By my 30s I had all the things I thought signalled adulthood: a career as a journalist , a home, a husband, a washing machine, a dishwasher and a fridge.
All the paperwork and white goods to prove I was finally the competent, confident adult I had always hoped to be. But at random moments my non-adultness would pop out, like when I opened my kitchen bin to find the lid thick and throbbing with squiggly maggots, and immediately called my mother for advice.
Or when my bag was stolen and people suggested my contents insurance might cover it. What contents insurance? While I was training to be a psychodynamic psychotherapist, and as a patient in therapy myself, I had more and more of these moments where I felt so unknowing and lost. Officially, I was a grown-up thirtysomething, but at times like this my adult skin felt paper-thin. To find out, first I interviewed older adolescents, and world experts in the neuroscience, evolutionary biology and psychoanalysis of this life stage.
Then I investigated young adulthood, parenthood or not and middle age. At every step, most people told me they felt they had a lot of growing up still to do. Finally, I came to old age. I confess, I thought all older people must be fully cooked adults by default.
