Recently I have found my desire to express myself in the guise of a woman is shifting towards wanting real life experiences as a female. I have always loved dressing up as a woman and piling on the make-up wearing wigs and enjoyed wearing dresses and high heels. I convinced myself for years I simply loved the dressing up and the performance required to act like a woman.
Nowadays, I am aware I wanting more than this and despite knowing I will always be a cross-dresser, I feel I would genuinely like to be perceived as female when I take on my female alter-ego.
This has had a subtle, but increasing, effect upon me in that I now try to see if I can look passable in the way I see many women out and about in their daily lives. I think as I am a male attempting to be a woman I may over-hype the look in terms of make-up, hair, clothes and shoe choices.
I love to indulge in feminine glamour but Now wish to be seen as a real woman rather than going for the glamour all the time.
I have found myself taking impromptu selfies on my phone more and more in the last couple of years and I dream of always looking female in each picture. I know I will ever be a beauty or a gorgeous looking girl but if I could look female and not like a man dressed up as one, that would be incredible to achieve.
